What is the big hurry? Why do we always rush? Why do we always fall into the trap of feeling we need more. I have been so slow to learn that the best things are found in stillness. As a driven person obsessed with productivity I always want to get a lot done. I want to accomplish 20 things carelessly instead of 3 things thoroughly. I have little patience for gardening for example. Or oil painting.

Went to court to see about getting a traffic violation reduced. I was ready to claim “guilty with an explanation.”

Spent the day at Lake Compounce with Madeline’s class. I was a chaperone for about 8 middle school girls. I think the kids had fun but there was something almost a bit sad about the entire experience. An amusement park is created to be a sort of catch-all experience of all the best kid cravings. Candy, junk food, free soda, thrills, amusement, games and gifts abound. Sexual tension charges the atmosphere. This is meant to be everything you could wish for on a day. At least when you are 13. But for many, the day ends in disappointment and even a measure of depression. Like if this doesn’t make me happy nothing will.